About

This is a hobby blog and I intend to research and then post articles on topics, useful to others and, that interest me.

I got an E in Inglich at skool so please excuse my grammar (Just kidding, but not about the grade).

About me: Internet enthusiast, dreamer, proud father but unfortunately Schizophrenic!

After my first breakdown in 1998 and my second in 2012 I’ve now been diagnosed with paranoid Schizophrenia. I am a massive skeptic to the tag “schizophrenic” they have bestowed upon me and I believe there is a lot I have experienced that is most definitely not brain orientated! I won’t go into details about that though but I will describe the effects of what I am going through.

Whenever I come into contact with another person I just cannot stop thinking wicked thoughts about them. If I see what I perceive to be a weakness I have wicked thoughts toward that person too. Sound like I’m nothing but an evil scumbag? Well let me tell you, each and every thought is like a crushing spiritual blow, especially when I LIKE the person, it is a daily torment that just never ends.

I am heavily medicated on a maximum dose of anti psychotics and anti depressants, which does help but only a little. It has bad effects too though, like memory loss, short attention span, poor concentration and disinterest in things.

Hopefully there will some day be a cure but for now, I am home all day. I look after the kids in the day and try to motivate myself to blog or study in the evenings. I usually just end up watching TV though and I highly recommend ‘Game of Thrones’, ‘Breaking Bad’ and my personal favourite ‘True Detective’.

That’s it, I hope you enjoy my blog!